Saturday, November 29, 2008

金色炸面


















有时侯会想,自己到底是为什么而努力..常常听到有些人能藉着孤独而获得强劲,但真的是如此吗?失去后才会了解, 真正的强劲根本无法由孤独中产生.最近有点愤世嫉俗, 内心世界仿佛被黑暗侵蚀, 我说, 不能让黑暗面表面化, 这只是假象..黑暗的尽头只有虚和无.

常提醒自己,人啊,只有在为了守护最珍惜的人或物时,一个人才能获得真正的强劲.我这人很奇怪.只有在被托与责任时才会认真起来,这不代表我拥有强烈的责任感,这只能说是,我不愿,或是不能辜负相信我的朋友们.但事与愿违,最不想面对的事实就是,原来我认真的样子只有这种程度.[世界上令人最痛苦的就是,没有一个人需要我,这个事实.]

大多数人在重复做同样的事很多次后就会失去最初的感动.我不想失去这如此重要的心理元素.即使重复做了一样的事无数次,我还是尽量使自己保持一颗赤子之心,充满热诚地去享受那份难以言喻的愉悦心情,即使那件事真的很无趣.(当然,读书做工除外).为什么人们总是会忘却细小却最纯真,源自于童年的那份感动呢?岁月如流水般一去不回,被时间的河漂洗过后,记忆的痕迹已不复存在.

多希望能把那温暖如春的感动温存于心中.

必要时,把它拿出来,扎成一朵多纸花,

送给你们.

p/s:1.有点不想把这篇放上去,毕竟这并不是我现在的心情写照.既然打出来了,就姑且一放吧.

2.突然想起梁同学:<一辈子的好人>虽然毫不相干

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12 comments:

Teddy said...

hmm...actually when times flies pass, the more u experience, the more negative things u will c n feel..

this causes many ppl to choose the pure, sincere feelings they have becoz they think those dont exist in others, so why shud they themselves have it.. in other words, they feel by choosing to lose this feelings bit by bit, it can protect them in someway...

but if u still choose to hold on to such pure n sincere feelings.. thats great..

一个单纯,诚恳的心永远是最好的。。我很像离题了。。 哈哈哈。。

谁不需要你呀?我觉得那句话该用在我身上才对。。 哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈。。。。我又开始自卑了。。

~kyi~ said...

Anyway,that's not what i feel now..but sometimes i jz cnt help myself..i cnt stop myself from thinking from negative side..sigh...

i wont think like dis anymore!i shall try my best to help my frens,even if my ability is limited,that doesnt mean my responsibility is smaller.

Teddy said...

yea, hehe... just do ur best for ur frens...

but i understand sometimes we just feel that we r not good enuf for them or we hav not been doing enuf for them.. such a weird n sad feeling...

nightspider said...

Life can actually b easier, if we start not to think so much.
努力的生活~
笑要笑大大声,哭也要哭大大声。
人生不过几十年,在我们管辖外的,不要想酱多……
努力的生活,开心地过每一天,如此容易啊~
回味无穷的回忆,就只能回忆。
但是现在的我们也在创造出很多的回忆,给以后的我们回忆。=)

wjleong said...

梁同学报到!

很多时候嘴巴讲很容易,要实践却很难咯。

责任不是对朋友而已喔,还有自己~

重复太多次,就会失去最初的感动。
*Law of Diminishing Marginal Utility*


要如何才能保持赤字之心呢?
应该是一个很好的问题~~

~kyi~ said...

梁同学,学会经济的要点了嘛.这条定律不一定是对的,至少,我希望我不受它限制."赤字之心"?赤字不好喔!哈哈.到底责任的范围是如何被决定的?我想,我好像戒不掉被别人依赖了呢.第一次体验被需要的感觉.

~kyi~ said...

张同学,我也知道人们不该沉浸在过去,不该缅怀空洞的回忆.但,有时只有这样做才能让我感受存在的价值...看来我还无法独当一面呢.

泰迪也有这种想法吗?人总是贪心的,正因为这种贪欲,才会觉得自己有所不足.好像还在做着小孩子般的梦.^^

Teddy said...

kyi,

got lor, sometimes i feel that i've not done enuf for my closefriends, or havent been as good as i can be for them.. duno y.. hehe...

nightspider said...

搞不好你一直觉得以前活得比较自在快乐哦~
不要酱想啦~
Every1 has to move on.
现在的自己绝对有资格活得比以前的自己快乐。
要对自己说:今天的我绝对要比昨天快乐!

~kyi~ said...

夜蜘蛛
错了...我不觉得从前比较快乐...
我喜欢我目前的朋友圈,虽然不懂这种感觉能持续多久,我一定珍惜他们的...在大学阶段还能遇上不勾心斗角的朋友,我真的太幸运了.

对了,下次再麻烦你吧.实在不好意思浪费你宝贵的时间.

ley said...

when someone use a blade to cut deep into another, he bleeds. the duration of bleeding may be short, but the blood clot will be there for a very long time and may not peel off forever, to protect his wound from being hurt again. so, he choose to be alone, trying to do things all by himself, keep everything to himself. he gains power from loneliness, contrary from what u said, perhaps he enjoys to be lonely. he starts to hate the world, thinking why r these happened to him. he is just a boy. why does he need to face all these things? he has no idea.

~kyi~ said...

>>HanLey

As i said,true strength can't be gained from loneliness...faithful relation between friends is the true cradle where strength originated from.think for your frens,assume duty for them,and in turn they will do the same for u.rmb..u are not alone..
dont be the puppet of wrath...